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22 April 2013 @ 09:21 pm
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13 March 2012 @ 10:40 pm
so it is π day tomorrow. if i have all the materials i would bake a pie to celebrate it. it's too bad that i don't.
 
 
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02 March 2012 @ 01:55 pm
this is not The End yet
i would not feel like this if it is The End
surely i must be lost
 
 
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01 March 2012 @ 01:17 am
i am a horrible person, because i can't stand seeing you so happy while i'm so miserable.
 
 
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22 February 2012 @ 08:49 pm
i don't know if i'm easily read.
i don't know if all that i am is written on the surface.
i don't know if anyone can look at me and know exactly what to say to me.
i don't know how many people i will let walk away.
i don't know how much of my vulnerability is left for someone to take.
i don't know how low my self esteem is.
i don't know how i can trust people anymore.
i don't know why i think i should forgive but i cannot.
i don't know how to forget either.
i don't know what i want.
i don't know how i am, because i've been too busy pretending.
i don't know who i am.
i don't know why i am writing this.
i don't know why you are reading this.
i don't know you.
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oh, rice~ 。。。
21 February 2012 @ 09:13 pm
forget what you are supposed to be and just be. if you're sad then be sad.
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31 January 2012 @ 12:31 am


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22 January 2012 @ 11:19 pm
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22 January 2012 @ 02:20 pm
 
 
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22 January 2012 @ 03:39 am
was i placed in this world to nurture a one-sided love? is it a coincidence that i am also very weak?
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22 January 2012 @ 03:09 am
i never could fall asleep without a dream. and when the only thing i have left deceived me as well, what else can i look forward to when i open my eyes? i don't want to open my eyes. i don't want a conscience. i hate it. i hate everything. living is hard, dying is easy.
 
 
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19 October 2011 @ 12:24 am
i'm giving myself a time span of 2 months at the most. will that be enough for me to figure out everything? i hope so.
 
 
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13 October 2011 @ 06:32 pm
 
 
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12 October 2011 @ 10:49 pm
i really miss how things used to be. crying over a sad movie, getting angry over an unfair grade, feeling excitement because of a text, smiling like an idiot thinking about how obnoxiously beautiful and warm someone eyebrows' smile could be.
 
 
oh, rice~ 。。。
30 September 2011 @ 11:09 pm
i am tired.
i am tired of thinking without a solution, breathing without a satisfaction, seeing without an appreciation, sleeping without a rest, living without a purpose. i am tired of feeling without happiness. so many nights i smiled and cried because the memories are tearing me apart. i am tired of being here, when all i want to be is there. i want to be so far ahead, so gone, so indescribable, so that when i look back, all i can do is blink. like a century old clock, i'm tired of ticking. because time does not fade but only grow upon itself.

i am tired of being myself.

i desperately want to be somebody else. if i could, i would have my heart remodeled or replaced. drink a bottle of oil so i won't hear that clashing sound every night i go to sleep. that clashing sound is telling me that i'm only a robot, that i will never, ever, be the human that i wish i could be.

but, don't i look brand new? don't i operate, don't i guarantee your satisfaction? i'm on auto pilot. i listen. i do. i'm perfect, but i'm broken.
 
 
 
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31 August 2011 @ 04:05 pm
everyday, i fall into a tug of war between what i want to do and what i should do.
 
 
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26 August 2011 @ 01:36 am
Changed my layout and neontokki's as well. Now let's see what I can do with this comm.
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04 August 2011 @ 11:13 pm
m o n o i r i s → t b - c o n t
 
 
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13 June 2011 @ 09:52 pm
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i had a dream, a tired and a maze-like dream. i was on a familiar street, and i was running with all my strength. i was running away from something. a van and a person were chasing me. after i ran for a while the street turned into a section i can't even recognized. then i was on a gigantic slide, and i was still running away. even when i was climbing up the stairs to get to the slide, i was still so determined to not let the other person or the van catch me. even when i was so out of breath, i still went down the slide. then i stopped once i got to the bottom of the slide. why did i stop when i was so scared that there was something out there that was going to get me?

what happens when sleep is the only thing i have yet it gives me nightmares every time i close my eyes?
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26 May 2011 @ 05:35 pm
I forgot to mention that I have a tumblr and a weheartit account. So come poke me there. :D

M O N O I R I S | OH RICE
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24 April 2011 @ 12:29 pm
Pimpin' out my drabble a day community with ma love araewi~ Check out neontokkiIt's like a fail version of chicken soup for the soul. xD
 
 
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22 April 2011 @ 10:35 pm
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22 April 2011 @ 09:46 pm
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